..SMA....(!!!!!!!!!!!!!)..

assalamualaikum,

hmm..hari ni 22 Ogos 2010 bersamaan dgn 12 Ramadhan 1431..
2 hari berakhirnye trial SMA..eh, silap..bkn 2 hari..
tp 3 hari..

ok, kesimpulan drpd trial tu..ape yg ana blh ckp..
ok la..target mumtaz ana x kesampaian kot..x pe lah..
msih ade bnyk mse lg sbenanye kalo mule dr skarang..
ha, di situlah msalahnye timbul..nak mule sekarang tu
yg susah..haishh..manusia..manusia..knape susah sgt
nk dpt kesedaran..?itu lah kite..sering lupa..sering lalai..
sering sombong dgn Allah..kite rse, kite ni dh bgs sgt..
smpai senang sgt kite terlupa akan DIA..
astaghfirullahal'azim..jgn lah KAu pesongkan hatiku..Amiiin..

hmm..rsenye kalo ana kate bnyk mse lg..mst ramai yg x stuju..
sbb tnggal 1 bln setengah je lg..tp, ana rse tu sbenanye mse
yg ckup..wlaupun kalo kite sedia lbh awl tu bgs..
tp, dh kite x sedia awal nk buat mcm mne..
ape yg buat ana rse ckup mse 1 bln setengah tu sbb..
ana fkir kalo dlm mse 2 hari sblm pekse + hari2 pekse tu..
ana baru start hafal btl2..pn dpt hafal smue..wlaupon
ade jgk la yg tertinggal..yg x sempat..
tp kan, bile fkir balk..hafal tu mmg la dpt hafal smue..
tp, x ingt..haha..blh plak kan..tu la hafal cpt2 mmg la mcm tu..
tp tu lah..kite kene la manfaatkan mse yg Allah berikan utk kite ni..

hmm..skarang ni..ana nk fkir mcm mne nk gerakkan jasad ana ni..
utk insaf dn menerima kesedaran..utk mule menghafal..
sbenanye, semangat tu dh ade..rancangn tu pon dh ade..
cume tinggal usaha ana je utk capai misi rancangn ana tu..
(ceh, apesal la pulak ana rse mcm ayt yg digunakan tu...emph,
lupekan je lah..haha)
rse mcm ana perlukan seseorang utk mcm mne ek..mcm kwn baik ana..
kalo die ade..ana jd smangt skit nk menghafal..mcm tu la..
mngkin sbb tgk die rajin..menghafal..jdik, ana pon x kan la
berdiam diri tgk die mengahafal je kan..
tp, smpai bile nk kene mcm tu..ya Allah..susahnye..
sebenanye, kalo ana dh start menghafal tu mmg trus mengahafal..
tp, start tu sprt ade yg mengahalang..ni smue mst gara2 syaitan
yg dengki dgn smanagt ana..bile ckp mcm ni..rse mcm lemahnye iman
ana..x dpt nk lwn syaitan yg dilaknat tu..

sbenanye..ana pon perasan yg ana smakin jauh dgn DIA..
ya Allah..na'uzubillah..ana perasan sgt sbenanye..
bile difikirkan balik..
tu lah, mnusia ni iman die trun naik..
ana ingt thun lps..ana mcm bnyk kali dpt petunjuk, peringtn..
ana prnh rse langsung x tenteram..mcm hidup dlm ketakutan stiap hr..
memikirkan neraka..tmpt pembalasan..tp x de siape la yg perasan..
prnh thun lps..wktu maghrib..ni ana nk berkongsi la skit..
terserah nk prcaye atau x..
wktu maghrib, ana x ingt tgh buat ape..dgn adk2 ana..
tibe2 je ana terdgr sprt ade suare ngauman..tp x tau
ngauman ape..bunyi x pernah didgr..dan mmg lain..
die berulang2 kali..ana tkut sgt wktu tu..ana tnye adk ana
sme ade diorang dgr ke x..tp diorag x pst..tp rsenye diorang
jgk kot..hr esoknye tu..ana dpt msj dr kwn ana..
yg mengatakn smlmnye tu ahli ape eh..x ingt lah pulak..
tp die mengtakan yg smlm..terdgr bunyi sesuatu..dn mreka
mengkaji, itu adlah bunyi dajjal yg sdg berusaha utk naik ke ats..
mse tu ana sgt sgt sgt takut..tgn jd sjuk..bulu roma menegak..
ana trus terfikirkan neraka yg mungkin sdg menuggu ana..
ye lah, layak ke ana utk syurga Allah..
ana cube utk bendung perasaan tkut tu..lame-kelamaan ok..
tp, ana rse mcm lbh baik ana hdp dlm keadaan tkut mcm tu..
drpd skarang ana lalai..hmm..tp itu lah..ana terfkir knape ana..
Allah sygkan ana..bkn ana je..smue hambaNYA..Allah cbe bg petunjuk
kat ana..tp tgk lah ana skarang..kmbali kepada iman yg rendah..
ana sering mohon supaye ana kmbali sprt dlu, dn lbh baik tp..
hmm, mngkin tu lah die..ana mohon tp usaha tu kurang..
itu la ana..nk usaha tu susah..ya Allah, seseungguhnye
lemahnye imah aku..x dpt melawan syaitan..

eh,ni dh lari tjuk ni..dh la pnjang lebar..oklah, berbalik
pd topik asal..SMA..!!..semangt najihah..semangat..
ko blh buat..jika kau fkirkan kau blh..kau pasti blh melakukan..
haha..sempat lg..
hmm..mnggu dpn nk menghafal..kalo ana x hafal, siap la..
siape yg bace ni..nk buat denda utk ana pon blh..haha
tkut sbenanye nih..tkut x dpt buat..tp, sbenanye bile
kite buat mcm ni lah..yg kite akn gerak..sbb ade tekann
yg menekan kite utk buat sesuatu perkara tu..
mcm skarang, kalo ana x menghafal mnggu dpn..sesiape blh
denda ana..hehe..
it's okay.."man jadda wajada"..

oklah, smoge kite smue diberi petunjuk drpd yg MAha Berkuasa..
Amiinn..
doakan ana utk berjaye dlm SMA ni..utk yg terdekat..
yg utk perkare2 yg akn dtg..insyaAllah..
dn jgk berjaye di dunia dn akhirat..AMIIN ya RAbbal Alamin..

p/s:bye, shingga b'jumpe lg..salam..

........31st July......

hmm...rsenye..tarikh ni ade kene-mengena dgn ape..?
well, actually it's my birthday..
nak ckap ape sbenanye ni..haha..hmm..

ok,the first person that wish me is my best friend ..
fatin nasyira..with a small but beautiful gift..
a big appreciation to her..trime kasih fatin..

then, my friend, aliah fitrah..hehe..i hope she read this..
but, jgn kembang hidung plak ye..hehe..
lpstu, thre's one of my friend that seems to wish me..
but maybe die saw me rushing to get home..x jdlah nk wish..haha..funny..

hmm..lpstu..my mother saw me doing something under my table..at kelas tmbhn..
ya Allah ape ni..mmg rojak hbis la blog ana nih..dh la..bm je lah..

erm, x jd lah nk cite..but, it is something that could bring my tears..
hmm..not important..can't tell here..haha..(jht x)..

ok, lpstu balik umah..balik2 tu ibu ana bwk adk ana, ijah kluar
jln2..die nak..lbh kurang pkul brape ntah diorang blk..lpstu ibu naik ats..
dan tibe2 ijah dtg kat ana..bg sekeping kad yg bersampul..
ana pon dh excited dn terharu jgk la..i thougt it was from my mom..
then, i thought of reading it on my own..without being disturb by my
siblings..especially ijah..bcos she is actually ,more excited than me..haha
lpstu, nk naik ats la ni..ijah plak nk ikut..ana pon sruh la die jgn ikut
dlu..nnt bru ana pnggil die msuk..die pon ikut la ckp ana..
ana pon msuk la bilik..ltk bku..dduk ats katil..
bukak sampul..dan akhirnye, bukak kad tu..
dan tertulis lah 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAKAK'

tnde tngn
(ijah)

hmm..it's from my younger sister..erm, youngest actually..
and suddenly my tears were dripping down..
flashing back the moment i told her not to follow me..
haha..then, i called her..and ask her whether she mad at me or not..
and she answered..td, ijah nangis kjp..i've appologised..and was crying..
i dont even know why..
i often crying lately..muhasabah diri..
that's a good thing for me..
but, we cannot just muhasabah diri,crying and not doing anything..
right..?hmm..just remember. even if anything happen to you..
Allah is always by your side..in one condition..
we must always remember Him..dont ever forget Him..
or else He will leave us(NAUZUBILLAH)..that moment we dont have
anybody else that can help us, the most..and it would be something
that we do not want..always ask THE MOST GRACIOUS and THE MOST
MERCIFUL..insyaAllah He will lend a help..

abaikan ape yg bru shaje ana ckp td..itu cume utk hiburkan hati,
dan menarik minat pembace je..haha..supaye korang terase mcm nk
bace..tp, sbenanye x de ape2 pon..

p/s:gurauan semate2..jgn terase..tp jgn slah fhm..ape yg ana ckp tu mmg btl..
always remember HIM..^-^..